Bring the Rain

Lord God, why are You patient with me? Why do You love me? Why have You saved me? I don’t get it. I can’t understand it. I mess up so much Lord. I can’t get anything right. Why have You done so much for me? I just want to repent, be done with sin, but it still haunts me. This indwelling sin won’t let me go. And no matter how much I want to be better it lingers. Lord how can You love me? How can Christ atone for me? Sometimes I feel like I am beyond atonement. But I know that is like saying Christ isn’t big enough.
Lord I don’t know what’s going on in my life. I don’t know where I am going. But I know You have done this. And in Your patience You love me through it. Through my fits and anger that make me think I haven’t really been changed by the Gospel. Through my pride that makes me want to seem like I have it all together. Through my selfishness that makes me want it to be about me.

But Lord this life is about making You famous. Why do You care for me? Why are You patient with me?

Thank You.